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I wish I could deny there was ever an attraction

But I was young and didn’t know any better

I freely abandoned my royal heritage & forfeited my inheritance

Just so I could chase you through the streets

I rummaged through dumpsters for you

And you let me think that we might one day be together

You always talked as if you knew

And for a time, I hung on your every word

My eyes were bedazzled by the flashes that came from your lure

And I willingly drank from the drainage of your gutters

I can’t really blame you for my affliction or hunger

But I so desperately needed a shower

You loved it when I’d get up and dance with you

But it made you furious that I would never sing your song

And once I caught a glimpse behind the curtain

I couldn’t go back out front and pretend like I didn’t know

Eventually, I just crawled into my own head

And dwelt in the basement of my soul

But the stillness and the quiet was more than I could bear

And I had to open a window

I really just needed some air

But I couldn’t keep the light from pouring in

The sun beams repainted everything

And the shadows had no place to go

I couldn’t help but notice the dark circles under your eyes

And the cracks in your façade

But it was never really about the way you looked

It was about the chaos that always seemed to follow you

After a while you stopped coming around

And I moved on to higher ground

Every so often, I catch of whiff of your old perfume

Or hear that song blaring from someone’s speakers

But it was such a long time ago

And I’m not who I was

(James 4:4)

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