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“The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked;

who can know it?”  (Jer 17:9)

 

I say that I’m one of Your sheep

But how well do I know Your voice

 

I say that everything that I have is Yours

But am I willing to take the test that You gave Job

 

I say that I am Your follower

But am I willing to wait for Your direction

 

I say that I am a new creation

But can there be a resurrection if there has been no death

 

I say that my hope is in You

But how is it then that I am so easily discouraged

 

I say that I trust You

But am I willing to put my Isaac (i.e. the fulfillment of Your promises, my hope for the future…) on the altar of sacrifice

 

I say that I’m in Your Army

But can I really be of service if I don’t know how to wield a sword

 

I say I want Your will to be done in my life

But am I really like the prodigal son, trying to demand and spend my inheritance on my own terms

 

I say that I want to see signs and wonders for Your glory

But how wicked and perverse can a generation become before no sign will be given

 

I say that You are my Savior

But is that possible if You are not also my Lord

 

I say that I want to be like You

But am I willing to be a man of no reputation or a man of sorrows who is acquainted with grief

 

“Search me O God and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.” 

(Ps 139:23-24)