Want you to know that I don’t blame you
You just wanted “the best” for me
You sacrificed so much to make me a winner
You deserved better
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If I just could’ve stood a little straighter
If my hair wasn’t so stringy
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All those cute little outfits
To you, sexy just meant playful
But playful meant something different to them
Anything you serve like an hors d’oeurve is bound to be devoured
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If only I had been a better singer
If I just had fuller lips
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I tried to smile for the camera
It’s what happened when the camera was off that made it hard
Thank God for makeup
The bruises & scars never showed
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Maybe if I had been smarter
If I wasn’t so clumsy
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You always said there was a price to pay
And I’ve tried hard to “live the dream”
Guess I must not have wanted it bad enough
You deserved better
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If only I had been taller
If I wasn’t so flat-chested
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Always in the court, but never the Queen
At nineteen, it’s already too late for me
The “1st Alternate” to the winner is still just a loser
Who could want me now?
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If only I could have lost more weight
If my eyes weren’t so close together
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I’m sorry for letting you down
For leaving the stage before the show is really over
I’m sorry about all of this blood on the floor
But as it weeps from my wrists, I feel strangely free
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If only I could have been a daughter you could be proud of
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Wow this is the second poem I came across for the day that leaves me speechless .It feels as if this one was ment for me .I know what it feels like with a spotlight on you and what happens when its off.When you are just a little girl you do it because you think that maybe they would love me more ,or maybe it would make them happy .And when you are a big girl and the stage gets too small the dress too tight the spotlight too bright and make-up too much and you get the blame for all of the feelings you hid so well for all those years .So with tears in my eyes i say WELL DONE! do check out my poem called DADDY on pikkiestoolbox.wordpress.com and you will understand .A poem well done BRAVO!!
I did read your poem “Daddy” and it was heartbreaking. As the father of four (two boys & two beautiful daughters), I can say that such a father has missed one of life’s greatest joys. I believe that every child is an incredible gift, that should be cherished. As I looked at other things on your site, I could see that you have an open and expressive heart, and such a heart should be treasured. I hope that you will continue to discover that regardless of whether it’s appreciated, you have things within you that are beautiful and completely unique; and I pray that you would continue to bring them to life. God bless you my friend.
This made me think about Hannah when she threw her hat into the ring for the pageant that she won . There was so many of thiese pageant moms and they talk about all the pageants that they had been involved I wasn’t so sure ths was where I wanted my daughter in.and felt mabe it would be best if she didn’t win. Of course we got a big sure prize when they called her name and the judges said they like Hannah s fresh girl next door presentation.
And during the season as went around from one litttle town and village and festiable, we saw more of those poor girls that looked like they really where not enjoying themselfs at all.Your story made me think of them and remeber how sad I felt for them .
I always want my kis to know that (even If love ) that we see from God , I wanted to make sure that they saw it from there Dad. What a beuatiful way to bring out such a sad true about our culture. It should make us all stop and think.
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Yes, you can publish a part of this if you’d like and the source link would be nice. Thanks for your interest.