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Subliminal

Subliminal

 

It’s all very subtle isn’t it?

It seems more civilized that way

None of that messy confrontation

No harsh words

Nothing in writing

Everything between the lines

Like chasing a shadow

It makes them wonder if they’re losing their minds

 

It’s a little snare here & there

It’s a consideration withheld

Or maybe just a tone of voice

It’s the smallest thing you can get under their skin

It’s pretending not to know

And a willingness to use what you do know

 

It’s mental chess

And you get to be the pawn

It’s the most effective way to fight

It’s corrosion instead of attack

War is so much more destructive when it doesn’t make a sound

We don’t really believe in good guys or bad guys anymore

For us there are only winners and losers

 

We rely on coffee & energy drinks to make it through the day

Yet we can’t sleep at night without a sedative

 

We pride ourselves on being tolerant

Yet we can’t stand being around anyone who disagrees with us

 

We struggle with how to keep up with the mortgage

Yet we can’t fathom life without a big screened TV

 

We refuse to let anyone tell us how to live

Yet we are unwilling to accept responsibility for our condition

 

Our hearts go out to starving children who are half a world away

Yet we struggle to notice the kids suffering from neglect on our own street

 

We don’t really buy into the idea of right and wrong

Yet we cry out against what we consider to be injustice

 

We worry about the effect of toxins on the environment

Yet we pump poison into our bodies without regard

 

We ridicule what previous generations have held sacred

Yet we’re depressed by the meaningless of our existence

 

We keep our cars detailed and our lawns manicured

But we struggle to find time to nurture our children

 

We’ve become oddly naive in our view of current events

Yet we’re too cynical to be optimistic about the future

 

We’ve given ourselves over to every sensual pleasure

Yet we’ve reduced love to little more than a reaction to boredom & bodily functions

 

We’ve squandered our inheritance at the buffet table

Yet we find ourselves terminally unsatisfied

 

We all still believe in the red, white and blue

But we can’t seem to agree on what it stands for anymore

 

And in the end

What no power in this world could inflict upon us,

we have brought upon ourselves

 

1.      Peace is not the absence of struggle within our lives; it is God’s response to it.  Despite some popular preaching within the church, the scripture clearly tells us that to live for Christ in this fallen world is going to be a battle.  It says that there will be internal struggles (e.g. the flesh wars against the spirit), external struggles (e.g. Jesus told His disciples that because the world hated Him, it would hate those who followed Him as well…) and spiritual struggles (e.g. we wrestle not with flesh and blood, but against principalities, powers and rulers of the darkness of this world and with the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms).  The Lord provides for this battle with armor for protection, with weapons specifically designed to defeat our enemy and with a peace that transcends the struggle.

2.      The Holy Spirit will generally play whatever role we assign Him in our life.  Though the concept of God as Father, Son and Holy Spirit, is foundational to the Christian faith, I’ve found that within the church it is our understanding of the Holy Spirit, and His role within our lives, that most clearly defines our differences.  I believe that if our understanding of Him doesn’t extend beyond what occurred in an upstairs room nearly two thousand years ago, we run the risk of being a people who possess a form of Godliness, but who deny the power thereof.

3.      If you are “mad at God”, you are wrong and you need to stop!  I’ve heard so many people talk about being mad at God, as though that is a perfectly normal and maybe even acceptable emotional response.  While God is certainly merciful enough to deal with this emotion, I’d submit that wisdom (which begins with a “fear of the Lord”) dictates that this is an unacceptable way to live.  If there is disagreement between God and me, I am the one who is not seeing things clearly and am in need of repentance (i.e. a change of mind).

4.      Our mind (i.e. intellect) is just as much a part of our flesh as our emotions, and just as likely to lead us astray.  It is quite common within Christendom to be warned about the power of our emotions and their potential to lead us astray; and while those warnings are warranted to a point, there doesn’t seem to be much acknowledgement of the potential for what we call “rational thought” to do the same.  It seems that the scripture puts much more emphasis on warning us about this latter pitfall, as we are told not to lean on our own understanding, that the wisdom of men is foolishness to God and that there is a way that seems right to a man, but that it leads to death.  My experience is that how we think about something will generally dictate how we feel about it; which means that by the time our emotions are carrying us away, we’ve already lost the battle in our minds.  No doubt this is what Paul was addressing when he encouraged the Corinthians to take every thought captive in order to make it obedient to Christ.

5.      Though God chooses to work through His people, we must remember that we are not equal partners.  Though we as His children need to make ourselves available for His purposes, we must remember that apart from Him we can do “nothing”.  Only He can draw someone to Himself, only He can change a heart and only He can bring the increase.

6.      Our human concept of what is good is just as corrupt in the eyes of God as that which is genuinely evil.  In the garden, Adam and Eve saw the fruit of the forbidden tree as good, even though God had been clear that it was not for them.  This fruit was from the tree of the knowledge of both good and evil, and it seems that our concept of what is good has been perverted ever since.  Jesus challenged the man who addressed Him as “good” teacher; saying that there is only One who is “good”; and there are many today who have based their eternal destiny on the premise that they are a “good” person.  Ultimately it will not be a question of our goodness; it will be whether we have partaken of the fruit of the Tree of Life (i.e. Jesus).

7.      The tests that we go through in this life aren’t meant to be graded by God.  The scripture tells us that before we were in our mothers’ womb, God knew us; that He knows every hair on our head and that all of our days were written in His book before one of them came to pass.  As the trials of this life reveal what is truly in our hearts, we must remember that this revelation isn’t for God’s benefit, it is for ours.  Unless we examine our response to these tests, we are unlikely to understand our need for repentance (i.e. to change our mind or direction) or to undergo genuine transformation.

8.      Someone who tries to make the best of both worlds generally makes nothing of either of them.  It is very much human nature to want to have it both ways.  We want to sit in front of the TV, eating what we want and at the same time to remain healthy and fit; we like the stability of a long term relationship, while maintaining the freedom to pursue temporary pleasures when they present themselves; and we desire the security of knowing that we’re bound for heaven, but are not necessarily sold out to the idea of being crucified with Christ.  Despite our nature, the scripture makes no allowances for this, saying that a double minded man is unstable in all of his ways, that friendship with the world makes you an enemy of God and that it is better for you to be hot or cold, than it is to be lukewarm.  Early in my walk with the Lord, I queried Him as to why it was better to be cold than to be lukewarm, and I felt like the Lord said that someone who is cold is not likely to mistake themselves as being hot.

9.      When our works are tested by fire, only those things rooted in faith, hope and love will remain.  Hope is the thing that brings love and faith together; because love “always hopes” and faith is the “substance of things hoped for”.  The scripture tells us that without faith it is “impossible” to please God and that despite all the good things we might try to do for God, if we have not love, we have “nothing”.  Paul says that the “only thing that counts is faith expressing itself as love” and that in the end only three things shall remain – faith, hope and love.

10.  Prayer is not just us talking to God, it is God talking to us.  Behold I stand at the door and knock, if anyone “hears my voice” and opens the door, I will come in…; when you “hear My voice”, harden not your heart; My sheep “know My voice”, they listen and they follow…; He who belongs to God, “hears” what God says…  The scripture is not vague on this point; God is speaking and His children absolutely need to hear what He’s saying.

Flightless

For years I stared at the bars of my cage

and was oppressed by their unyielding countenance

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They were built too close together to slip between

but far enough apart to view what I could not reach

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They had always defined the borders of my world

and I could not imagine what might ever change that

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But one day I heard Your voice telling me to turn around

and I saw that there was a door behind me, which was standing wide open

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I wondered if that threshold had always been there

and whether it’s gate had been so ajar

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I looked to my wings, as if I expected them to respond on their own

but they remained quietly by my sides

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It occurred to me that I might be a flightless sort of bird,

whose feathers were simply meant for warmth

After all it’s not as if I’d ever actually flown

But something within me knew that wasn’t right

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I looked to my tiny talons, which so firmly clung to the perch

that narrow dowel that I’d long viewed as a place of exile

and I wondered at what might loosen their grip

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Maybe it will be good enough to know that the door is open

and that I can leave whenever I want

Maybe I can be content with knowing that these wings have flight within them

even if I never feel the wind beneath them

Maybe if I sing the song that free birds sing – I will feel free

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Now I stare at that open door like I once stared at the bars of my cage

Now I understand that the barriers within my soul are far more oppressive than the ones that surround me

And that freedom must first be grasped within the heart

before it can be experienced in the body

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This is my interpretation of something I saw in a vision. I believe that the initial picture is that of a natural man, who lives by his senses. When he hears the voice of his Creator and comes to the place of repentance, he finds that Christ has facilitated his freedom, but that revelation doesn’t necessarily cause him to live as a free man. He may also have the revelation that he was designed for so much more, but that by itself does not cause him to fulfill the potential of his design. He sings songs of freedom, but he never leaves the cage. The enemy tries to convince him that this is all there is, but the Spirit of God continues to confront him. I feel like the Lord said that this is a picture of too many of His children and that without faith it is impossible to please Him. He also reminded me that it is for freedom that He set us free!

5 Inevitable Outcomes of Relative Truth

Statistics indicate that somewhere between two-thirds and three-fourths of adults in America believe that the truth is relative (i.e. that each person defines what truth is for themselves).  Though this philosophy goes by many names (e.g. enlightenment, secular humanism, post modernism, moral relativism…), they all hinge on the idea that truth is more a perception than an absolute (e.g. what I view as truth, may not necessarily be truth to you).  While on a superficial level this point of view might seem graciously tolerant, a deeper inspection reveals profound implications for a society that adopts such a philosophy.  In light of that, I offer these thoughts on what I believe are the very natural consequences of embracing this paradigm.

1.      Self-Centeredness:  A belief that the truth is absolute will generally cause us to search for it outside of ourselves and to view truth as transcendent to our own experience.  It tends to make us more willing to embrace concepts that are beyond our understanding (e.g. a higher purpose or a higher power).  A belief that the truth is relative will generally cause us to turn inward in our quest for truth and to limit it to whatever we can conceive of.  This tends to cause us to live on a more instinctual level, driven largely by how we feel at any given moment.

2.      Broken promises / vows:  Detractors of absolute truth tend to view its immovable nature as oppressive, while seeing the transient nature of relative truth as attractive.  But for those on the receiving end of promises and/or vows, the dynamic nature of relative truth is a legitimate cause for concern; as those who no longer wish to be bound by the limits of their vows can simply redefine their parameters for truth, thereby voiding any previous agreements.  In such cases, the perpetrator will generally rationalize that their mistake wasn’t in breaking the vow, but in making the vow in the first place.

3.      Disunity:  For a society, a community or even a family to be truly functional there must be a willingness on the part of the individuals to forfeit some amount of their personal autonomy for the greater well-being of the group.  The incentive for such sacrifice normally lies within a shared value system or maybe even a commonality of purpose.  Generally, during a nation’s formative stage, a document is forged, which ultimately reflects the commonly held values or goals under which the people choose to unite.  Our own constitution, which has been one of the most successful documents of its kind, hangs all of its lofty principles upon the relatively simple phrase, “we hold these truths to be self evident”.  At the point that each man adopts their own concept of truth, that statement ceases to be accurate; which ultimately renders the words that follow – meaningless. While relative truth would seem to be very liberating on an individual basis, it is highly destructive to the concept of national unity. 

4.      Lawlessness: The concept of a law is that a society agrees to set a limit, boundary or constraint on what is acceptable within that society.  The agreement on where that limit should be set hinges on some common standard by which to measure acceptable behavior.  In a society that embraces the idea that every man is allowed to define truth for themselves, every law becomes susceptible to the charge that it is an obstacle to personal liberty.  If our goal is to elevate individual freedom to that level, than there is no standard that could ever truly be enforced; which by definition creates a state of lawlessness.

5.      Godlessness:  The concept of fearing God is rooted in the idea that He is powerful, that there is good and evil, and that we will ultimately give some sort of accounting for our lives one day.  But if the truth is genuinely relative, then a just God would have no basis to judge anyone.  We would all simply be acquitted of any perceived indiscretion by the fact that we lived in accordance with the truth as we defined it.  In such a reality, even the concept of good and evil becomes abstract, as what I define as evil another may define as good (e.g. flying a plane into the World Trade Center).  If God has no means by which to hold us accountable, His role is reduced to that of a cosmic bystander.  We can invoke His name and claim to believe in Him, but ultimately it becomes of no consequence.

Me & My Shadow

As she prayed, she saw her shadow on the wall and something about it troubled her.  Despite her best efforts to ignore it, her eyes kept drawing back to it; and finally in frustration, she interrupted her prayer.

“Lord, what is it about this shadow that is so troubling to me?” she asked.

She was more than a little surprised when He very clearly and immediately replied, “It is not the shadow itself that troubles you, it is what it represents.”

After a brief pause to ponder what He might be referring to, she continued, “Lord, what is it that the shadow represents?”

Again, with great clarity He said, “It represents places where the light has been blocked.”

His words sparked a revelation within her, as she added, “Or in this case, the places where I’m blocking the light.”

“Indeed” He acknowledged.

The thought of it made her feel exposed and ashamed, even though she could tell that the Lord was not upset with her.  She unconsciously began to wrestle with ideas about how she might avoid casting such a shadow; and after taking some time to consider it, she asked, “Is it even possible to walk in the light without casting a shadow?”

“It is possible”, He replied; “but it’s something that you really have to want.”

Confused, she asked, “What kind of Christian wouldn’t want that?”

“One who craves the approval of men” He said.  “For those people, it is important that the spotlight remain on them.  They see their shadow as a representation of their stature within my kingdom and thus they work hard to cast it as tall and wide as they can.  They often justify it with words like ‘anointing’ or ‘influence’, and they convince themselves that I am somehow glorified by them being glorified.  But in truth it is nothing more than the silhouette that their image creates when they stand in front of the light.  What they don’t recognize is that to those people who chose to stand in their shadow, they are nothing more than an obstruction to the light.”

A wave of conviction rolled over her, as she pondered what kind of shadow her life might be casting.  Tentatively she asked, “Lord, are there people standing in my shadow?”

“Just as the light that comes from your life, so also does your shadow affect your husband, your children, your family, friends, neighbors and co-workers.  It is a condition that is common to all men”, He replied.

“Then how is it possible to walk without casting a shadow?” she asked.

“It can only happen when the light comes from within you” He replied.

She was at once amazed by the simplicity of His answer and challenged by the implications of it.  “But how can I make the light come from within me?” she pleaded.

“You must understand that it does not happen by talking about the light, or pointing to it, or trying to control it, or trying to market it or by trying to legislate it.  The light can only come from within when you succumb to it” He said.

As His words resonated within her, tears began to well up in her eyes and she felt an overwhelming desire to surrender herself to Him anew.  As she raised her trembling hands to Him, she said, “Lord, let it be so in me”.

The State of the Union

I’ve tried hard to resist the urge to write one of these, as I’ve recently seen so many others share their opinions under this same title. Unfortunately, none of those articles really resonated with me and so here I go. Before I start, let me say that I possess absolutely no credentials that should cause anyone to accept my opinion above their own; I’m simply appealing to what I consider to be “common sense”, which assumes that there is such a thing. Instead of trying to weave together an epic speech (which would undoubtedly take more time than I have to spend on this), I’m just going to throw out some bullets, which are the literary equivalent of a sound bite.

Finger pointing and rhetoric aren’t going to solve the issues that face our nation. While the politicians continue to offer simple solutions to complex problems, we as a country are wasting precious time and resources on programs that have no hope of improving things in the long term. If the problems were that easy to resolve, someone else would have already taken care of them. The issues are layered and interwoven; how you address one will affect the others. For instance, adopting tougher environmental standards in the US, will affect the ability of American companies to compete in a global marketplace (where other countries may have no such standards). That doesn’t mean we shouldn’t do it, but it does mean that we must undertake such changes with a clear understanding of the overall impact and a plan to handle the consequences Solving these problems will be much more like solving a “Rubik’s Cube” than winning a game of Tic-Tac-Toe.
Health Care reform is not the most pressing issue facing our nation. The “Health Care Crisis” as it has been dubbed in political circles has been a highly effective tool used to distract the people from the most pressing issues of the day. The truth is that even uninsured people in America have some access to health care and while their situation does warrant attention, America’s economic crisis threatens to impact a far greater number of people. The collapse of the”Consumer Based Economy” constitutes much more than a simple cyclic downturn that will eventually work itself out. The government (& the media) seems to think that if they can just convince the American people that the economy is on the way back up, that we’ll somehow spend our way to economic recovery. This of course ignores the obvious, which is that people without jobs or homes, are in no position to borrow or spend money. Until America finds a way to legitimately improve its position in the global marketplace, our economy is going to struggle.
Merely creating “jobs” isn’t going to fix the problem. Another word game that is played in political circles centers on the idea of creating jobs. First of all, it’s not merely jobs that people need. They need careers or vocations. Car loans are normally four to five years, mortgages are twenty to thirty years, paying for college can be even worse; so funding some highway project, that employees me to wave a flag for six months, doesn’t exactly meet my long term needs. History would indicate that the government isn’t the entity that is best suited for job creation; so maybe the “job creation” initiatives need to be more focused on getting American industry back on its feet and competitive in the world marketplace. Give a man a fish, feed him for a day; teach a man to fish, feed him for a lifetime.
Bi-partisanship is destroying our government process. At the end of the last administration, it was clear that the Republicans had failed to chart a course for this country that inspired confidence in the majority of Americans. After a year of the Democrat’s “super majority”, it’s clear that they have no such course either. I sense that most Americans are growing sick of both of these parties and that they are tired of choosing between the lesser of evils. I believe that the majority of Americans don’t agree with either the far left or the far right; and that they’re weary of being limited to those two options. If the mid-term elections go as predicted, we’re simply headed back to the same gridlock we’ve faced for almost two decades. Though a third party might help, three completely new parties would be even better.
The members of Congress seem to have lost sight of the fact that they’re supposed to be representing the people and not working for the President. Nothing has demonstrated this more clearly than the health care reform debate. Despite the fact that the polls and the feedback from the “Town Hall Meetings” overwhelmingly suggest that the majority of Americans have some serious reservations about the proposed bills, Congress has doggedly pursued the passage of them in order to please the president. It now appears that the American people are poised to remind their government officials who they work for, when the next election cycle comes around.
This isn’t the Health Care Reform the American people asked for. The problem is that too many American’s can’t afford the high price of Health Insurance and/or medical treatment. A solution that does nothing to regulate those skyrocketing costs, that takes away benefits from people who already have them, that places more financial burden on already struggling employers and that puts the government more in control of our day to day lives, is no solution at all. A real solution is going to take more time, cooperation and innovation than that.
There is no place for a “Czar” in a democratic government. Our government was built upon a system of checks and balances, which were put in place to avoid any one person from circumventing the system. Slowly, but intently, we are now creating ways to bypass those checks and balances. History tells us that we will eventually rue the day that we allowed such a thing to happen.

I could go on, but I won’t. In the final analysis, I’m tired of politicians who seem eager to assign blame for our problems, but who don’t seem to have any innovative ideas about how to fix them; and who seem unwilling to work constructively with anyone of a differing point of view. Our government officials were supposed to be “public servants”, but over the last few decades they’ve managed to become more like trust fund babies, who we’ll be supporting for the rest of their lives. The “American Dream” began as a dream of having the opportunity to prosper; but over time it has eroded into some vague notion that we are somehow entitled to be prosperous, simply because we are American’s. I believe that unless something changes soon, we will once again be dreaming of the opportunity to prosper. (Bryan Corbin)

Letter to My Newborn

Son Dearest Son,

It is very late in the evening, and as I write this letter you are sound asleep. The truth be told, you’ve been asleep for hours, but it was only in the last few minutes that I managed to let you go. I knew that becoming a father would be very special, but I never knew that my heart could be so full. It’s as if I’ve lived in the same two-story house for my whole life, only to discover that there’s actually a third floor. Your arrival has broken something open in me and I can’t seem to stop it from spilling out. I’ve barely been able to speak all day, but in this late hour I feel the need to try to put some things into words. I don’t know that what I’m about to write will make any sense, but it is my heart in this moment.

I guess that I should start by saying that you are the most precious thing that I’ve ever held in my hands. You have a face like an angel (just like your momma) and as your tiny hand wrapped around my finger, I just knew that you were a miracle sent from heaven. I guess that since babies are born everyday we don’t tend to think of it as miraculous, but now I understand that it is. I marvel that anyone who’s experienced this could doubt that there is a God. I feel humbled that He allowed me to be a part of it all. He surely could have given you to a better man; I hope that I don’t disappoint Him and I hope that you’re not disappointed either. I feel ill-equipped to be all that you’ll need me to be, but I am resolved to give it everything that I have. If I succeed at nothing else, I pray that you will grow up knowing how special you are and how much you are loved.

As much as I want to do & be everything for you, I realize that my influence on your life will only be for a season; and that long before I’m ready, you’ll be a man, making his own way in the world. In the time that I have, there is so much about life that I hope to teach you. I wish that I could tell you that it is how I’ve lived my life, but sometimes the way to discover what is true is to first figure out what is false. Unfortunately, I’ve learned many things that way in my lifetime. It is my hope that you will be a better man than I have been, so I will try to teach you the truth, even the parts that I haven’t lived yet. The thing about truth is that even though it can be a hard pill to swallow, it ultimately sets you free. I pray that the truth will always be welcomed in your life, because a man who deceives himself is incapable of being honest with anyone else.

I wish I could tell you that this new world you’ve come to is some sort of paradise, but honestly this life can be pretty hard. There is fear and pain and evil here, and things aren’t always fair. But son, there is also goodness and beauty and love in this world, and if you’ll watch for it, you’ll find it everywhere. God left His fingerprints on everything and if you’ll notice them, it will remind you that He’s always close by. Try not to keep score on how many good things or bad things happen in your life; be quick to forgive and to admit when you’re wrong, so that you can move past the hurtful things; and take time to enjoy and celebrate what is beautiful. Try to be the kind of person who builds up instead of tearing down, and who gives more than they’re looking to get. Always remember that the most miserable life you can live is one that is all about yourself.

As I held you today, my mind was filled with images of all the things that you might become; but honestly, I just want you to become whoever you were created to be. And the only one who can really get you there is the One who created you. Don’t worry when people tell you that believing in God is a crutch; the truth is that we all need something to lean on and if you look closely, you’ll see that everyone has some sort of crutch. The difference is that those other crutches don’t have the ability to bring peace or hope into your life. God means for us to lean on Him, which is why He only offers “daily bread”; because He wants us to come back every day. You see God is love and in the end that’s what it all boils down to; it is our deepest need, our strongest motivation, our greatest joy and ultimately what life is all about.

I guess it seems strange to be thinking about the end of your life on the day that it’s beginning, but if we understood from the start what will matter at the end, I think it would change how we lived in between. Don’t worry about what you don’t know; that’s what faith is for. Don’t worry about the ways that you will fall short; that’s what grace is for. Don’t worry what other people believe about you; just be careful what you choose to believe about yourself. Don’t get caught up in what this world calls success, because a man who is driven by the need for success is destined to be pursued by the fear of failure. Don’t let your heart be swayed by this world’s conception of beauty; the most beautiful face you’ll ever see is the one that looks back at you in love. Don’t be afraid to believe in what you can’t see or explain; it’s only the invisible things that really last and only the things that are bigger than we can comprehend that stir up our ability to hope.

I guess I can’t try to fit a whole lifetimes worth of advice into your first day. Now that I’ve written all of this down, I’m not really sure what to do with it. Maybe someday you’ll read it and more than heeding all of the advice, I hope you’ll have some greater understanding of how your arrival changed my life. I’m so grateful for the opportunity to be called your father, but I also know that before I held you in my hands today, you were in the hands of “The Father” and long after I’m gone, He will still be your Father. I pray that nothing I ever do will distort your view of Him, because even if I fail you, He never will. I love you son, I’m so glad that you’re here. God sure did a great job when He made you. I hope you will one day understand the miracle that you are.

With All of My Love – Dad

* * The sentiments that I expressed in this letter are no less true for any of my other children (including my step-daughter), but you can only experience the” first time” once and so this writing simply centers on that moment.

3D (Dads Don’t Dance)

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An Invitation

Dear Lord, as I begin a new day I confess my utter dependence on You

I do not have the strength nor wisdom nor purity of heart to face this day without You

Indeed I am undone, a man of unclean lips who comes from a people of unclean lips

Often more filled with my flesh than with Your Spirit

I pray that my life would be an invitation to You

Because apart from You, I can do nothing

Lord I want to thank You for the abundance of my life

For a loving wife, for beautiful healthy children, for a wonderful family & friends

But I confess Lord that I have yet to love my wife as You loved the church

That I don’t always demonstrate Your character to those I claim to love

I pray that my life would be an invitation to You

Because only You can work all things to the good of those who seek to fulfill Your purpose

Lord I confess that I have stared into the darkness & that at times it has overwhelmed me

That I have battled discouragement from the things that I’ve seen & heard

That I am often afraid of the kind of world that my children are growing up in

That I’ve often overestimated the enemy and underestimated You

I pray that my life would be an invitation to You

Because only “perfect love” casts out fear

Lord I pray for my family, they are a precious gift from You

I have tried to be a spiritual leader, but I have often failed to yield to Your Spirit

I have often tried to serve You and them in my own strength and I’ve fallen woefully short

It is clear to me that I cannot change a heart or even a mind

I pray that my life would be an invitation to You

Because no one comes to You unless You draw them

Lord I thank You for the changes that You’ve brought about in me and my life

I thank You that You didn’t hand me over to my own stubborn pursuits

That Your love has covered the multitude of my sins

But Lord despite Your abundant gifts to me, I have yielded little fruit

I pray that my life would be an invitation to You

Because only You are able to complete the good work You’ve begun in me

Lord I pray that this day would be different from all of the others

That it wouldn’t be about my wants, needs, desires, thoughts…

But that it would be a day lived for You and about You and through You

That every thought would be in subjection to You, that my body would be a living sacrifice

I pray that my life would be an invitation to You

Because You are worthy of my praise – Amen